im not sure why my stresses affect me the way that they do but im ready to figure all of it out and im trying to do so on my own free will. my name is brooke and i am 26 years old. and all of my stress affects me in so many different ways. my mom died last year and well to say the least, i dont even know why, but i kept running for months at a time and just kept getting high. and all im trying to do is to be sober for me in my life in my first home for the firts time ever. i have been a christian for many years now and have never "quite" been shown the way. due to my own neglect. i am so unsure of where all of my stresses come from i have diverted all of my attention to this, a friends computer due to the fact that i dont even write out all of my thoughts, i put them all on a computer. in my oppinion, pretty pathetic. but who's to say. i know that depression runs so deep in my family, that i am willing to do whatever it take to heal my self, for myself for my family, and for all of my friends, because due to severity, i am realizing that all of this is due to one situation, and it is all due to self- neglect. and ive been doing drugs, since i was a freshman in high school.