to start at the begginning around 2 years ago i met a girl named XY(fake name) at first me and XY hated eachother, she even robbed me once of a 28 dollar video game, but after a while me and her gradually became better freinds and i kind of adapted her lifestyle of smoking weed, skipping school, and we even got arrested together for a small B&E in an abandoned house with freinds. we became better and better freinds and even experienced the different phases we went through for the last year or so. and one day after a while of knowing each we stopped playfighting and layed down and watched tv, slowely things started happening. and we just became freinds with "benifits" for a little while. i started sneaking over to her house every night for a few hours and sleeping over on weekends. but in the way our group of freinds works. theres no way we could hold anything and it was better kept a secret what we did. this continued for around a month
and then we started actually dating. we still didnt tell anyone but things started changing in the relationship. i know this sounds retarted but if you were in my position you would know how much she means to me. stress started getting more consistent until finally after she had gone on my msn and asked a girl named jessica to go out with me and she said yes (XY did this as a joke ofcoarse) and that was the day i broke up with her. i considered this the most horrible thing she could ever do. and i was fine for a day or two. and thats when i realised just how much ive grown to love this girl over 2 years. and she started dating a girl named YZ(she isnt actually gay it just has alot to do with freindship history) and the day before they broke up she came to my house and we decided we couldnt be away from eachother. the next day when courtney broke up with her carolyn wasnt sad she was pissed. but i still see her some times and we do still have fun but i love this girl with all my heart and it breaks it to feel that this girl will just be a passing memory one day. i really need some advice on this im sorry its so much to read but i felt it needed to be explained. ive just been crying my eyes out for the past 10 minutes thinking about this girl.