i cant do this no more. its all too much, i dont wanna see ppl with their brains on someones lap, their 11wk old child with thier skull crackd open. the motorcyclist with a cerebral haemhorrhage from a massive RTA thats talking to me one minute and the next is dead, the person that jumped 10 floors cus they cudnt do it ne more, the 6yo kid with their legs smashed to bits cus a car ran over them, a bloke that jumped in front of a train, the 18yo that hanged themselves, the american guy that took an o/d, i could go on. I cant do it- i cant deal with it! why have i put myself in this position!! its all too much!!!! all these things go round and round in my head and i cant deal with it nemore! i havent slept in 3months! y am i puttin myself thru this! is it worth it!? all i am now is haunted by these people. ontop of everything else i had going on! why wud i do it! gawd knows! i dont know how much more i can take! why!!!! i cant understand anymore! im lost, confusd and on the point of breakdown! please help me! i dont want to reach that point again!