since saturday i have been bingeing a little bit and im worried i wont be able to pull myself together n it'l be the slippery slope downwards into my eating disorder again.

have worked so well last few months and have lost 10 pounds but been soooooo f-ing stressed this last week that i been thinking of comfort things alot... got alot of things on and to top it off been going through a very bad patch with the boyfriend and am moving house in the next few weeks and am worried that i will be doing the move without his help which will be even more stressfull. alot of what goes through my mind every day is sugary treats and alcohol.

saturday i had a few friends over for a bbq.... went wild with the alcohol.. drank a bottle of champagne to myself then started on the beers n then jack daniels. was pretty out of my head when i only planned on getting a little tipsy. jsut craved it so bad.

sunday i ate like a pig.. including half tub of haagen dazs cookies n cream.. felt sick when i went to bed

monday i sorted my head out and eat healthy and normaly

yesterday i slipped a little and had some chocolate that i didnt really want to eat and then finished my daughters dinner of chicken dippers and rice.. i really didnt need to do that.

today i still felt a strong craving so i allowed myself a chocolate bar which is quite light n only has 7g of fat... but that made it even worse and i ended up buying a packet of oreo's and had 8 of them.

i am still eating healthy meals in between eating and drinking ****.. and i am still doing my usual exercising but i know i am ruining my hard work really but where i am soooo stressed out right now i am just craving some kind of comfort ... exercise is not enough to make me feel better at this point.. it usualy is and i feel buzzing for the rest of the day.

HELP... i do not want to sabotage all of my hard work over the last 3 months... and i do not want to slip back into having a full blown eating disorder again with the added bit of alcoholism just to top it all off...... and this is how it normaly starts. i need to stop this before it slips any further.

any amazing suggestions???????????????????

Let me ask you some question:

Are you tracking what you eat in some shape or form? Like are you mentally noting what you eat? Like are you saying, "I can't eat X because I already eaten Y?" Or writing it down somewhere?

Are you worried about something? Like when you worry do you want to eat? Do you talk a lot about food? Like if someone ate something, do you tell them what is good or bad about that particular food? Do you constantly find yourself talking about food with your friends/families?

What are you binging on? Is it food you consider bad or good? When you eat, what are your thoughts? Are you thinking about how good it is or how you are just going to only eat one when there's so many left in the box/shelf? Are you thinking about your weight? Are you thinking about all you worked so hard for? Do you find the cravings more instense when you think about your weight?

Are you eating enough? Even though you might be hitting your calories limitation, it might not be your limitation; meaning that are you eating to satisfy yourself? Or the body image you think you'll obtain by eating some particular type of food?

Do you look at your body constantly? Like do you spend a lot of time in front of the mirror or folding clothes around your body?

Do you spend a large amount of time at the food store looking over labels or reading articles on food/diet?

I asked about this when I had the problem a while back.

The person I talked to said that this is actually very common for people who start losing weight. I told him that I originally had no real goal in mind; just get healthy. And that is still my goal.

What I found is that the very best, the absolute best way, to overcome this problem is to actually allow it to occur. It is a natural evolution you must overcome. This is the true test: you can eat like crazy and lose everything you worked for; or you can solve this craving issue and continue to live healthy and normally while still enjoying the stuff you find "bad."

i eat usualy about 1800 cal a day .. i dont watch too much what i am eating but i make sure its food that is good for me.
i dont spend alot of time in font of the mirror coz i am always quite busy.. who knows though if i wasnt.

since things have been better with the bulimia/binge eating .. i havent really craved eating sugary stuff or getting totaly drunk ot having a mega binge that much.. but last few days i have realyl wanted to have a massive binge and i hjave been fantasizing about sipping on a nice cold glass of wine.. that will lead to a full bottle.

i do generaly talk about health, fitness, exercise, food related stuff a fair amount yes.

i dont write down what i eat at all but i know i roughly eat 1800 cal a day, normaly if i fancy something sweet i allow myself it and its usualy enough to satisfy me but as i said.. last few days just one little thing isnt tnough and if i have the one little thing it has lead to eating more then i need to the point of being very very unconfortable.


Yes i do have issues with knowing i have to keep my weight below a certain point as i dance and do modeling .. so i know deep down it doesnt really help me coz im eating healthy and exercising for vanity as well as health.
although i had issues with food from when i was about 9 or 10.. they did get worse when i started to do the modeling when i was 19-20, 7-8 years ago.
i have yoyo'd alot in the past and my weight goes up and down to suit a particualr modeling job i have been booked for.
deep down i wonder if i should stop doing work that i put my body on display for... but....... i like the money.

oh and when i binge ... its usualy high sugar stuff .. chocolate, ice cream, cookies, cakes etc... either to the point of throwing up or to the point i feel very very ill.. although i havent binged to that extent for a while. i need nearly get to that point sunday though but knew it was getting dangerous so forced myself to stop ... if i really feel the need to binge and there is no access to sweet stufff then i will take the next best thing which is usualy high fat stuff such as potato chips, greasy cheesy food etc.

feel a bit vexed coz havent felt cravings for food or alcohol this powerful is a long while but i am jsut overloaded with stress... daughter had been playing up BIG TIME lately, major probs with the boyfriend that may lead to a split up, studying plus working,,, and now will be moving house in a few weeks.

As with any evolution, remember there is a high point and a low point. There is a point where you are about over the hump, but not quite. Think of it like doing a pull up. The longer you hang, the harder it is to pull yourself up. Do it quickly, and get it done.

I recommend going outside, buy everything you think is "bad," store it up, and then boom, it's over.

I had huge cravings for pop tarts, and not just any, that one with cookies and cream. I had to have it. So how did I get over it? I just went to the store and bought three or five boxes, I forget now. It took nearly 4,5 months to complete it and I had to throw some of it away. I came so sick of it, I actually felt sick when I look at it.

The natural evolution of eating is that you crave it -> eat it -> get tired of it -> crave another thing or nothing at all. Do you ever had it when your mom cooked you something? And you liked it? And she started cooking it everynight until you got so sick of it that she stopped for like a year before you start craving it again? Well that's sort of like how food works. You want stuff, then you eat it, get tired of it, and move on to the next thing. It's natural and perfectly alright to go into something even though it's "bad."

Yeah it sounds like you're stressed. Just keep cool, and you'll make it out. Best of luck to you.

It sounds like your job is one heck of a job. At some point, I think you should ask yourself if it's worth it.

decided that i was gonna do some mega binging and get it out my system.
i had a 5 day binge in which many liters of ice cream were consumed, as well as lots of pizza, chocolate, donuts, alcohol etc.. i knew i needed to get to the point where i felt disgusted and nasty n then it would be the end of the binge.

as i say, it went on for 5 days and final day Sunday i went for it big time and drunk a fair amount as well.

put on 3 pounds in that 5 days LOL

been back to normal for 2 days now and feel a lot better, the sugar and grease cravings are gone. worked my ass off at the gym yesterday n at spinning class this morning... and feel good.

glad that little episode is over ... hopefully for another few months.

Thats not the correct way of thinking partygurl !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its self control, like me. If anything gets me stressed (sometimes) i just think f**k it and eat a loaddddddd of sh1t.

Its not the way to think though. Eating cleaner would help you actually deal with the stress more efficiently also!

Anyway, get back on track gurl

i really didn't feel like i had any self control for those days, no matter how hard i tried to sort it out, just couldn't get myself to that point... was moving house and was so stressed with that but then the move fell through so the stress turned to upset and gutted-ness.. plus in the middle of all of this i was splitting up with the BF and had a naggin voice in my head scolding me coz i know i have a modeling job in just over 2 weeks.

i think the final day sunday .. i was sat there half drunk, scoffing pizza and macaroni cheese and i suddenly realized what an utter loser i was being and thought that if my BF is going to do disspearing act on me that im gonna need to show him what he is losing n stop wallowing in self pity abusing my body.

If you seek more passion in the reasons for your personal goal and spin off indirect and direct reactions from this same passion, this passion will exceed the passion you have for binge eating.


Passion is HIRED. Binging is FIRED.

Only YOU can make it RETIRED.

Crack open the head-rock and let passion ROCK around the CLOCK.


Look, then, into thine heart, and write!

(Henry Wordsworth Longfellow)

Your heart has the seeds. Your spirit brings the needs. Feed the seed with the need and bring good deeds.

One who succeeds whither the weeds

(Chillen)

Encountering problems should never be a surprise. If you have the internal spirit; will yourself to be near it--anything you encounter can be overcome.

(Chillen)


This IS YOU:

My motivation and desire will never dim. As long as my heart keeps tappen' this will never happen.

(Chillen)

Don't let failures draw the line in the sand for additional progress. Failures can do just this. They can STOP ANY FURTHER potential for progress in the goals you seek. And, YOU decide which happens.

When you fail do you find it hard to get back up?

If you do, you are completely normal.

Many people use failure as an excuse to give up.

It is important to understand that failure is a part of the growth process.

Think about this example. How many times does a small child fall over before they finally stand and eventually walk?

It is countless, but somewhere along the way, most of us lose that ambition to keep trying until you succeed.

The next time you are defeated, think about it as part of a process. Get up and try again and again until you move forward.


There is a lot to learn from the innocent passion of a child.


NOW GET ROCKEN!

GROWL for all to hear for miles........


Best wishes,
Raul