Here's my delimma: Okay, I'm almost 20, still a virgin. Doesn't sound bad, right?

Honest to God, I think there's something wrong with me, in some way, sexually. I don't care about sex. I'm not interested in it at all. And it's not just sex, it's any aspect of it, including masturbation. Any of the times I have, which is only a handful of times, I don't care about it, it's not fun, it's not pleasurable, I don't like it, and I can live 100% fine without it.


The part that makes it such a problem is: I want to WANT to have sex. If that makes sense? And plus...I know guys aren't gonna stick around for a relationship if sex is 100% impossible. Cause yeah, to me, if I'm not wanting it even with consent, it would feel like a personal-view of rape in my opinion. If that makes sense... anyway


It's at the point where sometimes, I just wanna "do it, get the first time out of the way, get used to it, and just do it" except...I know that's a REALLY bad idea. Cause I'd probably regret it times infinity. But... I dunno. Just a thought I have sometimes.