I find myself in a dilemma, I have only posted here once before in the topic of a sexual fantasy in regards to having sex with a man (I am male myself and consider myself heterosexual).

The thing is that I have been single all my life and at the age of 28 I am starting to notice it more now then before.
I have never been a social person, and I have some social problems like
spending nearly all my time alone, sometimes I can go for days without talking to someone.
This has been on and off for like the last 14 years now, sometimes it doesn`t bother me that much but now the lack of an intimate relationship is slicing me up from the inside.

I have on some occations thought about going to a prostitute before but I have always let the moral part of me prevail, since I am a virgin and that I think\thought that it would be a kind of defeat to lose my virginity to a prostitute after all these years in selebacy (spelling).
However now I am serioulsy starting to have second thoughts and I try to sort out for\against in relation to actually go and see one.

I am a person who is very sensitive to physical thouch and I have not had much intimacy in my life, I know I tend to idealize women and have done so for a long time and now I start to see the possibility to see a prostitute as something that may make me overcome some of my fears and I will get to know how I react primarily to the physical intimacy and just being with a woman.
With all the problems I have had (depression, suicidal thinking etc) I have to admit that I am about to fall apart, not in relation to suicide but because I want to experiance intimacy.

I could of course try to go out and hit on women, going for a one night stand or even more, but my lack of sexual experiance is a part (though not the whole reason) of why I can`t get myself to do it. I know very well that if I would go to a prostitute it would be a mostly pure physical thing, as in the absence of love, commitment etc that one would have with someone you would love, though of course I might actually think a prostitute would have a more clear understanding of my situation then many other women since I assume they see all kinds of men for all kinds of reasons.

Deep inside me I really want to, soon the only thing that talks against it is my moral about losing my virginity to a prostitute. Though on a more humorous note it may be better this way then losing it while being dead drunk at a party.
The benefit for me is that I would probably met a non-judgmental woman that would from a pure sexual point of view for sure know what she is doing.

Sounds like a plan. Check-out craigslist for girls offering the 'GFE'.