I've been feeling down for a long time. The main thing for me has been so lethargic all the time; no get up and go; poor self esteem which in turn makes me feel paranoid and anxious and I have this sinking feeling.

Finally went to see my GP today. I found the entire process quite distressing. I understand that time is precious and he wanted to get straight to the point but I didn't feel like I had the time to say everything I wanted to, I had written a few things down but didnt get the chance to even open it.

As soon as I said I had been feeling low he started firing a series of questions, which I think was some sort of depression test. In the last 2 weeks have you felt like this most of the time, some of the time...... etc etc. He got frustrated when I couldnt give him a prompt answer but it wasnt that straight forward for me.

Anyway he then asked me if I wanted counselling. I explained that I have had this before, but he interrupted and said 'you are depressed, not just a little bit but a lot' and said that there were 2 options, medication and counseling. The medication without the counselling would not be good thing as I could not be monitored. I was given an appointment for counselling but not offered any medication?

Anyway, I told my friend who is convinced that I have a thyroid problem. Told me to demand a blood test and told me to cheer up when she first saw me knowing what had been said. I agree that I do seem to meet many of the symptoms she described from an article about thyroid problems, but equally they could all be a sign of depression.

She thinks that GPs too readily diagnose depression as the easy option.

I dont really know how to feel or what to do. I feel confused and silly. What do I say to the counsellor when I dont even know myself whats wrong with me? Should I ask for a blood test to eliminate thyroid problems?

Why cant I just deal with this by myself. I wish I hadnt said anything to anyone now. Its just made me feel even more stupid and angry with myself.