For the last couple of weeks I've been feeling pretty down on and off but today I just seem to have hit a real low and had started to plan to cut my wrist tomorrow - just the thought of it brings me some kind of relief which I feel stupid for. I told my OH and they kind of lost it a bit thinking that I was suicidal which I'm not at the mo. - though it is pretty attractive - so much so that I couldn't deny it to them. I just feel completely lost in this hell - on the face of it I have everything going for me but at the same time I feel I have nothing, I have no feeling left I'm just an empty shell, no energy to commit to anything.