I have been looking after a neighbour who also suffers depression. He knows I suffer from the disease and I help him as much as I possibly can.
Anyway i was picking up and doing quite well up until friday.
He rang me up to pop round and told me to come alone. I did, and got the shock of my life- he had cut his arms to shreds and taken an overdose. I did all I could at the time, rang his family, ambulance etc.
After several hours in casualty and seeing a crisis team they sent him home, saying he wasnt a danger.(his family are disgusted and so am I.).
I went the next day with my hubby to clean up the mess and found knives all over his house what he had used to cut himself with-and they said he wasnt a danger to himself.
The thing is im worried now. i cant get the image out of my head and its really getting to me. Im not sleeping and crying all the time.
I know when his family go back to work this week that they are going to ask me to look after him. I want to but i am scared that he tries to take his life again. I have enough on my plate at the moment-getting over the shock is hard enough.