hi, sorry i'm not sure if this is in the right place, but i'm really struggeling with everything and it's all gettng on top of me but i'm trying to hide it from my mam as she has difficulty with dealing with my MH problems in any way that is really useful i mean she tries and i appreciate that but its hard to you know?,
i've got a reiveiw with the councillor, the doc who does meds and the councillor who does the MDR work with me, and i'm really worried about it as councilling is the only place that i dont bother to hide how i'm feeling becuse they already know whats happening, so outside i guess i appear more ok than in councilling so i think that if i try to make an effort to look ok then the councillors will be confused but if i don my mam will be, also i dont want the councillor to talk about stuff thats been happening in sessions as its personal and difficult enough, so it's a real problem as i havent had a session with them for a while (around 2 weeks) and now i'm not sure what going on, im really tired and havent slept in about 30-37 hours, the voices are keeping me up and making me really adjitated,as well as this i'm having quite regular flashbacks and am feeling really low, i havent taken my meds ether because i really dont want them in me, i'm really nervous about this review, i've thrown up 3 times in the past hour and am shaking quite badly, feeling really low, not sure what to do please help
i'm sorry i know i shouldnt post, but i'm not coping very well at the moment,
i'm really sorry