**** i just wrote alot, now it's gone the world must hate me ><
well i was saying that i have changed, im not angry at everyone else anymore, i just hate mmyself nowadays. and i miss what it used to be like, i miss it so!!!!! even if it was bad, it was real. this is just all fake, i am always polite and nice and blaah i wish i was still strong
but im broken
i want to cut
but im not at home, and i dont cut anymore so i got no razorblades with me.
i feel a long night of crying and screaming comming towards me