I was about 15 years old (15 years ago)i had no friends nothing, in deep depression all alone almost everyday.thought about death all the time all i wanted to do was die. then all of a sudden people started to notice me for what reson i never knew. befor i knew it i had lots of friend and started to get girl friends it was great for about 4 years but inside i knew it was all a lie.

i cheated on every gf i had from one to the next. lied to every friend i had, why? to try and make myself look good look important try and impress everyone so i wouldnt go back to being alone. i hurt a lot of people real bad broke a lot of hearts,
once i started i couldnt stop but in the end i ended up all alone anyway.for many years i could not forgive myself for all the hurt i caused i've got in touch with most of them over the last few years some have forgave me and some didnt most of them have gotten married and have kids and seem happy at least they are better off without me around. anyway no need to reply i just wanted to get this off my chest. thank you for takeing the time to read my story