I'm 23 and have tried to commit suicide a few times since the age of 12, the last time I was taken to hospital and I was promised help but nothing much has happened. I keep falling back and wanting to kill myself, normally over the most stupid of thoughts, it seems like it will never get any better and no one will ever be able to help. I have tried everything, pills, counselling, exercise, talking to friends and family they have all failed. I feel better for a while and it comes back with avengence and the cycle starts again.

I have been left alone today and have spent the whole day drinking crying sleeping and trying to slit my wrists and thinning my blood with asprin, I told my boyfriend but he doesn't seem to care much. The only thing that seems to stop me is how I will leave my family feeling, probably the same as I feel right now, and I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Is this how life will always be, I need a way out, I feel stuck I can't carry on like this!! Please HELP x