We'll, for the first time since the 7thgrade, i went out with a friend ( no kidding, i went through some severe isolation for years, which is why i'm sick now), i'm an 18 year old-about to be senior now. So its been a while, and uhh, we saw Dark night. My mood was pretty high, i mean, i had my sense of humor, i could hold conversations, and start new ones when old ones died. So mentally depression almost let up for that night, and physically too (no headaches, back pains). But there's one thing that depression still managed to take from me, while watching the movie i couldn't feel any emotion. I mean this Dark knight was supposed to be one exciting/thrilling movie, and it looked exciting and thrilling, but i couldn't feel anything still. Everybody screamed, i just sat there and watched, everybody laughed at the joker, i just sat there and watched. The little emotional scenes didn't touch me at all. I was lifeless.

Me and my friend,David, had a great time before and after the movie though, it was fantastic night, its just i think the only way i can feel true joy, fear, and excitement is when i'm with the 3 (seriously 3) friend i have, or when i'm at work and i have fun with some people there.

This was a disappointment, because i thought my few friends could totally relieve me of all of depression's symptoms when i'm with them, because the type of depression i have is called Atypical, and my doctor had said the best anti-depressant would be the people i have fun around.

But i guess even they can't give me that ability to feel any emotions from, even one of the supposed to be "great" movies of the year.

I can't complain though, I know the more friends i make, the lesser the depression's effects will have on me, because thats the heart of my depression, just being alone from the 8th grade until a few months ago back in my junior year.

I hope you all are taking similar steps to helping your problems, i know how hard it can be, i mean it didn't show last night, but i was like a little scared kid hanging out for the first time in over 3 years, but everything turned out great anyways.

I suggest you all gain a faith in some religion whatever that may be, i believe my prayers to my christian god (does that sound politically correct? "Christian God"?) got me through last night, and also helped me make it a great night for the both of us (me and David that is).