ive suffered with depression for 6years and for the past 3 years ive been under gp care. recently my mood has gotten worse and i now have a cpn again, i havent had one since 05 and i feel this is a step backwards....ive also been sober 6 weeks and im finding it hard going at times but it is getting easier.....my self destructive behaviour has gotten worse and im finding it hard to stay motivated, even getting out of bed is hard. the kids are off school atm so can lie in and laze around but they go back on monday and i back to the school routine which i know im going to find really hard....i know i need support atm but i just feel im going round and round in circles.