Dont know really where to start but I ve been having a relly bad time with my feeling and thoughts for the past couple of weeks and they are getting relaly intense. Due to go back to a cousellor this week and I am jsut really scared of it. Maybe I am as better as he can get me, maybe this is me for life. Iv e pretty much decided that I will end this existance at some point wether thats in the next few weeks or few months. Just want to cause the least possible disruption to people. I wanted to get better but now i just cant see a way through it.?