I have been really struggling this week again, having had a bad week last week as well. I have been on anti-d's for the past month so just don't know if it's me or the drugs. I am increasingly edgy and anxious - finding previously easy situations very difficult. I have a work meeting all day today, nobody knows about my depression and I just don't know how I will manage. Still self-harming. Needed to off-load before I put on my public face and get on with the day. Having this forum is a real help - find it hard to open up to people who actually know me as it seems so out of character for me to be like this.