feeling really low, spent at least 3 hours of today ether in tears over really pointless and stupid things, i dropped a plastic cup and then sat down next to it on the soaking floor and cried for about 30 minuets and thats just one of the stupid things i've cried about today, i can't belive how rediculous i'm being, i mean i shouldnt even be bothering the people who read this with it, i guess its just things mounting up, the voices are much more frequent and loud, the flashbacks have been more vivid and difficult to cope with, the nightmares are much more frequent so i'm scared to go to sleep (ive had 6-7 hours over the past week), my scars are really sore and ichy although i haven't sh in atleast a year and the other thing that caused the majority of my scars happened 4-6 years ago, my emotions are all over the place, my weight has been yo-yoing for the past two weeks and i havent been to therapy (with agreement from the psych) because she diddn't think that it would be a good idea while i'm taking exams and then of course there is the exams themselves which i cant stop thinking about, i'm really sorry for posting it's just i've not been like this since i was taken to a MH unit, i'm really sorry i know i shouldnt be bothering people with my stuff sorry again