Well as you may have guessed im back after my little battle with the binge monster. Im baring some new scars (in the form of 3 extra kgs) And some new weapons (jenny craig, self help books! ) I really have been put through the wringer so to speak in the time i have been away and i feel about ready to have another go at losing this weight for good. Its so true when people say that losing weight isnt just about the body, its about the mind also. I was no longer in the right head space to lose weight and to tell the truth i didnt care, i had other things to worry about! I wont go into it too much, but in this time ive had my mother have a cancer scare (still waiting on results for this but doc says it looks good/treatable) ive been feeling major guilt about not being there for her as i live in Perth and she lives in Victoria. My partner's step brother died and we had family staying with us for a while for the funeral, and ive been depressed. Just getting through a working day has been a real feat lately so i really havent had the energy for anything else. Im only just starting to feel like me old self again now.

Through all this i have learnt and am still learning a whole lot about myself and the way i cope with things, which is of course turning to food. I thought i was going fine with the emotional eating when i beat boredom and panic eating, but i soon learnt a whole level of emotional eating!